I WANT MORE AND MORE MONEY!!!

I WANT MORE AND MORE MONEY!!!

By: ~dae_meen~

“Muhaimin, here’s your RM50” Mr Khalid called out for me, I went to him and received that piece of valuble paper. Man! I smiled out of satisfaction! Today (Saturday) was all about earning money, money and money! When it comes to money, I don’t care whether I have to work from 7.30 am to 7.00 pm. Nearly 12 hours in sweat! But I don’t care because I will be paid! After received that money, got my ride and went back home. Even my exhausted body and acking back is got like thin air after receiving that reward. Well, it sure was breath-taking but it also satisfiying (One day= RM50, it’s quite good right?).

Sorry if I sound like ‘I’m crazy over money’ in the introduction. The truth is, I am crazy about money! But my obsession about having money is directed to a clear purpose. I always make sure that my intentions are clear and keep this in mind “All my intentions alright, am I doing it for ALLAH? When I’m looking deep deep down inside, do I have the right niyyah?”- Intentions, Native deen. I also bear in mind the quotation by Abdul Rahman Auf “I never put weath in my heart, it is always in my hand.” These are essential reminders for me when I confort money.

I’m neither rich nor I have many possessions. My study fees and every expenditure in my life is coming from only one source, that is my parents. So that is why I choose to search for a part-time job for me to earn extra income and not solely depending on my parents. You see, every semester, the fees are RM1090.00,  comprises of study expenditure and hostel, that doesn’t count my pocket money. How much in total do you think my parents have to spend only for me for one year? Maybe nearly 6 thousand ringgit? That is a lot of money. (If I save that money, I could buy a FZ 150 i).

For this reason, I try to search every part-time job possibble for me to take. My mother wont allow me to apply for loan and I am not yet qualified to earn shcolarship (because I’m back in first semester). If I am in the financial crisis,  I don’t have the guts to text or call my mother and say “Mama, may you be in the pink of health. Its very dark here, I can’t afford to buy a torch-light” or “Mama, may ALLAH bless you. Theres inflasion going on in IIUM and everything is expensive, I only ate Mee Cintan everyday mama” or “Mama, my bottle is empty, I need to refill.” Whether it is a direct message or not, i’m like spineless even to ask even though my mother once said to me “It is the duty of the parents to give what is best for their children. Don’t  pull back to ask, we parents will give what we can. Don’t spend to much. Save money Amin.”

Taking a part-time job is actually fun (apart from exhaustion). You tend to meet new people and learn wonderful things that you will never get just doing your everyday life on campus. The most meaningful value that I’ve learn is what once said by a senior of mine, bro Faisal “Now you know how hard it is just to earn a RM50.” Yeah, now I really know how is it to be a parent working and in the same time raising a family, tough, exhausting and you have to confront many new difficulties. “Every fool can make a baby, only man can raise one”-Outlandish.

That is why I’ve change from not fasting at all to at least fast for one day in a week. I am always on diet and spend RM5 only a day, that means breafast, lunch and dinner is in one meal only! Around 4 o’clock everyday…(huhu)… That is why I am not fat! (haha).. One old friend of mine said to me “You still look the same as if your still in form 5”. All my old friends have doubled their weight.

Last words from me, don’t let money control over you. Spend money for best and clear purpose only. May ALLAH bless us all.    

Have we ENDED the siege?

Have we ENDED the siege?

Assalamualaikum.

I think this is my shortest post, an announcement actually. Insyallah on this coming Monday, 26 July 2010, Journalism Club will be organizing a talk titled LL4G: “Have we ENDED the siege?”  

Time: 9.00 pm to 11.00 pm

Venue: Main Auditorium, IIUM Gombak

Speaker:

1.       Bro Noorazman Shamsudin, the chief co-coordinator of the south East Asian LL4G team 

2.       Dr Syed Haleem, a trained medical doctor on board Mavi Marmara

For your information, both of the speakers are Malaysian volunteers on board the aid ship Mavi Marmara that was attacked by Israeli commandos on 31 May 2010.

Everyone is welcomed to come. Please join us. Let us Unite 4 Palestine!!!

THE ANGRY CROWS

THE ANGRY CROWS
by: ~dae_meen~

I’m tired of walking,
because I’m actually fasting,
so I sat down beside a tree that evening.

When I glanced down,
there was an injured crow on the ground,
suffering and crying over an open wound.

I felt sorry for the poor thing,
I’ll regret my life if I don’t fulfill this feeling,
“I must do something!!”

 I tried to come nearer,
but I can’t do that, I am in danger,
there were angry crow’s in that area.

Those angry crows kept on attacking my forehead,
on and on not a single second should be wasted,
so I retreated and moved away instead.

From a distance, I saw, they attacked everyone who were near the injured one,
they will attack and attack until they’re done,
no one is excluded, not even one, none.

Masyallah, I’m watching an inspiring atmosphere!
This is what we call “one with nature”,
so much things for us to ponder and nurture!

The meaning of brotherhood is displayed by these crows,
they will not go down without exchanging blows,
protecting the weak and defeating their foes.

 Were they born from the same womb? Does the same blood run in them?
I don’t know, but will it change them?
I think not, because it is implanted in them, without the feel of boredom.

This is what we humans don’t possess,
when it comes to brotherhood, we don’t have the passion, zeal and zest,
we always want to save our own ass.

Look at the our brothers and sisters in Palestine,
what has happened and still happening?
Their cry is still on, do we really care what is on going?

They suffer each day,
without any place to stay,
what else can we say?

To them, death is nothing,
because we all be dead and it will come without a warning,
but the important thing is how is our ending?

The Palestinians, they never feel weary but always tight,
“We will not go down without a fight…”
“…in GAZA tonight…”

Let us all stand up, for the revival of ISLAM!
Watch out Kuffar! Tomorrow, we will never be the SAME!
“United we stand, together we SLAM!”

HAVE WE ENDED THE SIEGE?

HAVE WE ENDED THE SIEGE?

By: ~dae_meen~

“Sir, feel free to donate to our brothers and sisters in GAZA” I said to people walking there while holding a fund raising box with a poster of Life Line 4 GAZA l BREAK THE SIEGE. On top of that box, I also sell a sticker of Mc Donald, instead of “Drive trough”, it is written “Drive away”, this is to promote public awareness on the importance of boycotting Israeli products, and you can get that sticker from me just for RM2. I met like tons of people by doing these two things, some of them donated, some of them bought the sticker, some of them smiled and went off. Out of all the people I met that day; only one person gave me a shock I will never forget!  This person was a man, middle aged man like 30s to 40s.

“Sir, please donate for our brothers and sisters in GAZA” I said to this man. He then gave me a tense look and said “When are you guys going to stop this?! It’s not like the money we donate will reach there! Do you think Israel will certainly allow the aids from Mavi Marmara enter GAZA?!” Then he left. Just left like that without me explaining to him the real deal. I didn’t have the chance to do so as he was shouting and people all around me was looking us having this ‘debate’. Well, it is a good thing actually he got away fast, instead of me explaining with my words; maybe I could have smacked his head off! His words made my blood boil! Astaghfirullah…

            His words made me ponder, why am I doing this? Why are we still helping out our brothers and sisters in GAZA? I penetrated my mind with many questions, and then I came to a conclusion, “HAVE WE ENDED THE SIEGE?” It seems as if we our contribution to realize the Life Line 4 GAZA l BREAK THE SIEGE project is so big, but actually what we’ve achieved so far is only a little portion before AL-AQSA will be liberated. If freeing AL-AQSA requires 10 steps, maybe we have only done the first. We still have long way to go my friend. The bloody tragedy on 31 May was only the beginning. 31 May was only like a solar eclipse, Israel was seen as the real terrorist on that day forward, the next steps that we will do is make sure that “Israel and the gang” will face an eternal blackout!! We will slam you until you can’t even breathe!!

            This is not the time to call on quits; this is surely not the time for us to stop. The purpose of LL4G l BTS is not solely to send aids for GAZA but to end the siege thus liberate Palestine from the dark hands of Zionist. Have we reached that? For those who are on the verge of breaking down, for those who feel spiritually weak, for those who are exhausted of walking this path of truth, this is my advice to you “Stand back up again, even when standing is difficult.” If we are not going to finish this job of freeing AL-AQSA then you will? If we are not fit enough to spread this code of life than who will?

             “STAND UP, STAND STRONG” Never back down, ALLAH promises awaits us. Muslim 4 life, come one, Muslim unites, strive for Islam, and strive for ALLAH. 

THIS LIFE IS ALL ABOUT MAKING DECISIONS

THIS LIFE IS ALL ABOUT MAKING DECISIONS

I will never forget these quotes:

“Who likes you taking LAW?!” Muhammad Muttaqee Misran

“I know you Ameen, you’re my son, LAW is not for you…” Dr. Salbiah Binti Seliman

“As long as you love it, you deserve it…” Sir Nasir Salleh

“Oh, I thought that you are taking English…” Sir Abdoh Zainal Abidin

“You want to take English? Well then, whenever we need help overseas, we can ask for your assistance…” Ustaz Abdul Hadi Othman

“Come on Amin, don’t change your program…” Pakcik Baderol Alam

“Follow what fits your interest, not what others think…” Akhi Syakir Sabaruddin

“Salam…Well it's a big shock for me to hear the news...Changing course? I was a HiMEGA’10 participant and your words about LAW stuns me…Because of that it was one of reasons I choose LAW now…I wait for the next post to know the answers…However, good luck in whatever you are doing..InsyaAllah” Siti Asma’ Mohd Nor

“Salam amin..apa2 pun, moga ia bermanfaat utk islam & dirimu di ms depan. Jiddiyah & ikhlas, itu penting. selamat belajar & menjadi budak BENL” Fatimah

“I believe that BENL is the program for you…” Ali Husni

“Why did you change your program when you already know the culture?” Arina Mohd Daim

“Why did you back down when you were just starting?” Bro Khalid Al-Walid

“We are waiting for you in KTD…” Bro Irwan Effendi

“Hanya mereka yang tidak faham tuntutan Al-Asr akan kata anta rugi masa belajar, anta tak rugi Ameen…” Muhammad Hilal Asyraf

“The reasons why you do not have to change your program are what you’ve said at HiMEGA…” Sarah Hamizah Zainal Abidin

A FRESH START!!!

 Life is along way indeed...

Day: Sunday
Date: July 11^th
Time: 2.30 am

A FRESH START

Exhausted. I can’t believe the exhaustion that I’m in at this moment. I’m sweating like crazy! My whole clothes are wet. Well, it is kind of impossible not to sweat if you are looking for the department of English Language and Literature in the department of IRK (near the Masjid). So you went on rooming like 3-4 times and stumbled on the same place around the whole IRK building and you find no sign that is written “Department of English Language and Literature”.

Then I called my sahabah, “Akhi, where is the department of English (DELL), I can’t find it anywhere in KIRKHS near the Masjid” then he replied with a very laughing tone “Haha, you will never find that place if you are in KIRKHS near the Masjid, that department is near the EDU building.” Oh I was like hitting my on head on the wall. “Am I stupid or what? I forgot everything as my previous department was in AIKOL (Ahmad Ibrahim Kuliyah of Laws)”.

12.00 pm to 2.30 am. I spent three and a half hours just to find DELL. Now I know that it is just near CELPAD. What a relief!

At 2.30 am I reached my room. All my friends were all awake waiting anxiously for the final showdown Netherland vs. Spain. But I wasn’t interested. I’ll just surf the internet for the match preview later. 

I know that I’m undeniably worn out, but I can’t sleep this night! Why can’t I sleep because tomorrow is A FRESH START for me!

Starting from tomorrow (12/7/2010) I am no longer the same person I am. I chose to change. I chose to become a new person. I chose to follow my dream since I was 15 years old. What is it? What is my dream I’m mumbling about?

Maybe for the past semester, I am known to be a law student taking law classes and willing to be a future lawyer. But all of that has become history. I am no longer a LAW student. I am someone else. I changed my program to BENL (Bachelor of English Language and Literature). I am following my mother’s footsteps. She has a PHD in English (I am not sure what is her specialization). So I am not LAW anymore student but I am a BENL student.

When this happens, the famous question that arises is “Why did you change your program Amin?” This is the first obstacle I have to confront. Then I usually will answer back “Do you want a short answer or a long answer?”

So the question here is that WHY DID I CHOOSE TO CHANGE MY PROGRAM? I am willing to share it in my next post to come. Till then. Wassalam