SHE’s gone… It will never be the same again….

“It will never be the same again,

everything’s we’ve lost, we can’t regain,
the love we wanted, we can’t get,
because it’s only left as a memory we can’t forget”

“SHE’s gone right?” I said to myself. I loved her, respected her, and cherished her but she’s gone now and I can’t reach her any more.

I still remembered, the time I spent with her. Every moment was special. Every second was crucial. There was once a time we talked heart to heart, no barrier as if we were madly in love, yeah; we are in love, a love so deep.

We shared all about our lives, experiences and values we have to gain. At the end of our meet, I took out one RM50 note as a present of her kindness, but she nodded and smiled, then she said “Wait until you have your own work”. I was still 16 at that time, 5 years ago. Yeah, I know I need that money more than she does.

12 September 2010 was our Eid UL Fitr family gathering at Bagan, Parit Besar, Batu Pahat. But this year’s Eid will never be the same as before, it will never be the same. We gathered together as a family but something feels wrong. There’s something missing. There’s someone missing. “She’s missing” everyone cried, “She gone” everyone said, “She will never return” everyone agreed.

We cried, yeah we cried, tears were running, sad faces everywhere, “She’s gone” I kept on repeating it to myself. As a human being I felt sad as she is not there, but I know Allah has called her home.

This is the very moment when the lyric of Zain Bikha’s song; I remember your smile, makes me fail to smile.

Where there’s alright, there is no wrong,
I always thought we were so strong,
but our time just flu right by,
there wasn't a chance to say goodbye.

I'm so confused,
I feel all alone,
Deep in the heart I know ALLAH has called you home,

o..o..

But yes,
Your smile,
still lives in my mind,
and yes,
it’s so hard,
I just break down and cry.

I remember,
the time,
our friendship always strong.
I remember,
your eyes,
ran away to melt my heart.

Most of all,
I remember,
I remember your smile.

Sometimes I lay awake at night,
the pain in my heart i just can't fight,
why did u have to go away,
yet I know none of us can stay.

U always be,
so special to me,
in this world you'll always live as a memory.

o...o..

But yes,
Your smile,
Still lives in my mind,
and yes,
it’s so hard,
I just break down and cry.

I remember,
The time,
our friendship always strong,

I remember,
your eyes,
run away to melt my heart

Most of all,
I remember,
I remember your smile.

I miss you, I love you grandma.

May Allah Bless your soul atok Saemah binti Urip.