Exhausted. I can’t believe the exhaustion that I’m in at this moment. I’m sweating like crazy! My whole clothes are wet. Well, it is kind of impossible not to sweat if you are looking for the department of English Language and Literature in the department of IRK (near the Masjid). So you went on rooming like 3-4 times and stumbled on the same place around the whole IRK building and you find no sign that is written “Department of English Language and Literature”.
Then I called my sahabah, “Akhi, where is the department of English (DELL), I can’t find it anywhere in KIRKHS near the Masjid” then he replied with a very laughing tone “Haha, you will never find that place if you are in KIRKHS near the Masjid, that department is near the EDU building.” Oh I was like hitting my on head on the wall. “Am I stupid or what? I forgot everything as my previous department was in AIKOL (Ahmad Ibrahim Kuliyah of Laws)”.
12.00 pm to 2.30 am. I spent three and a half hours just to find DELL. Now I know that it is just near CELPAD. What a relief!
At 2.30 am I reached my room. All my friends were all awake waiting anxiously for the final showdown Netherland vs. Spain. But I wasn’t interested. I’ll just surf the internet for the match preview later.
I know that I’m undeniably worn out, but I can’t sleep this night! Why can’t I sleep because tomorrow is A FRESH START for me!
Starting from tomorrow (12/7/2010) I am no longer the same person I am. I chose to change. I chose to become a new person. I chose to follow my dream since I was 15 years old. What is it? What is my dream I’m mumbling about?
Maybe for the past semester, I am known to be a law student taking law classes and willing to be a future lawyer. But all of that has become history. I am no longer a LAW student. I am someone else. I changed my program to BENL (Bachelor of English Language and Literature). I am following my mother’s footsteps. She has a PHD in English (I am not sure what is her specialization). So I am not LAW anymore student but I am a BENL student.
When this happens, the famous question that arises is “Why did you change your program Amin?” This is the first obstacle I have to confront. Then I usually will answer back “Do you want a short answer or a long answer?”
So the question here is that WHY DID I CHOOSE TO CHANGE MY PROGRAM? I am willing to share it in my next post to come. Till then. Wassalam
A mother is devastated, she is howling with pain, yelling all she can in that dark and dingy night. There was nobody to hear her yell and not a soul to pacify her, because outside her shack is a long winding lonely road. There was no existence of mankind for miles and miles ahead. The wind was at rest, the leaves didn’t rustle and no resonance of a barking dog, silence filled the air. Loneliness was already killing her, but no one knows what made her cry?
Losing something you love with all your heart isn’t really the grief you can ever overcome. Khadijah lost her baby. Her only means to live. She saw her child getting crushed under a car in front of her own eyes. Blood was all over and the accident was terrible, too terrible to imagine. She can only say that “That LIGHT DARKENED her life.”
The whole time she walked with her child in her arms the only thing that worried her was Amins (her son’s) future. What kind of a person will he be? Will he make me proud? How much light is life going to bring in his existence? She was imagining and feeling every day of the Childs growth, and what she had in store for him. But who knows what’s in store for us tomorrow, life can change in the splits of a second. Talk about destiny, all those dreams hopes and expectations were snatched away from her in an instant. Her smiles were frowns and her faith just crumbled, like a deal soul in a living, rather breathing body.
This is how it happened…. On that abandoned road, were a few streetlights dimmed and barely sufficient to see. There was this one light that was visible from a distance, but as it came closer it got brighter and brighter. That LIGHT changed Khadijah’s life into DARKNESS forever. A speeding car came down that road, as if the driver had jammed the accelerator, cutting across the wind. He came at a speed of 110kmph throwing beer bottles out of his half open window. He was definitely drunk, the speed took everything in its path. Just then, there was a loud cry, and silence set in again, the cry of a baby and no sight of a child.
Ironically the mother wasn’t hurt, not a scratch on a body, not a bruise on her arm. She opened her eyes and didn’t she Amin, her vision was blur. After a few minutes when her sight cleared up she looked all over frantically for her baby, but alas!! There was nothing. Just then she noticed something about ten feet away, it was blood draining into the gutter’s, and pieces of minced flesh, laying there saying so much without saying anything at all. It was the blood of her baby; the child who hadn’t even seen life, the same sinless child whose future was just being planned taken down by the LIGHT in DARKNESS.
This was only a made up story. In life, we have the power to choose what type of LIFE we want. Whenever there is GOOD, there will be EVIL. The definition of the word “wonders” in GOOD and EVIL is sometimes exactly the same. LIGHT can be both in them but whether it is the “LIGHT in LIGHT” or the “LIGHT in DARKNESS” depend on how you define things as they are. Do not follow that DARK path even how wonderful it can be. If you pursue that path, the outcome has never been wonderful as what you have seen. Not only you will be affected, but the things attached to you will feel the same dreadful sensation you felt.
Read this story and make your own conclusion. May The Blessings of ALLAH be upon us.
8 Mei 2010, more than 10 thousand people gathered in Melawati Stadium, Shah Alam Selangor for the biggest fund raising event that is PALESTINE MASS GATHERING (Perhimpunan Perdana Palestin). Many people from every part of Malaysia gathered and showed their enthusiasm and love towards our brothers and sisters in Palestine. The event started at five in the evening and ended at nearly 12 midnight. For about seven hours, with ALLAH’s will, RM102 thousand was collected. I would say that the fund rising was a success, RM102 thousand a night?! That’s a big number!! TAKBIR!!
The experience that I went through that day was remarkable, extraordinary, amazing and outstanding (whatever word it may be…) experience one ought to feel. For those who did not take part in this event, I assure you, you should REGRET your life for not coming!! I do not know whether there’s a second time or not. Well it was a LIVELY event if you ask me. For those who did not come, make sure that you’ve done something (Anything!!) for our brothers and sisters in Palestine.
PALESTINE MASS GATHERING concert was a different concert from other concerts. When I was a kid, the word concert seems to give a negative connotation in my head but PALESTINE MASS GATHERING managed to break that to positive. Why do you think 10 thousand people from the entire world (coz there are also non-Malaysians) spent their money and time just to come to Melawati Stadium that day? Was it for fun? Was it for money or leisure? NO. We GATHER there only to be TOGETHER as one entity that carries one vision and mission. We assemble there to praise ALLAH and strive that Islam will soon again become the ruling system of this world. That starts with the liberation of Palestine from Zionist. WE WILL BREAK THAT SIEGE!!! Just wait and see. "United We Stand, Together We Slam". We will STAND!! And we will SLAM!!
From all the performing artist that night, personally, the most striking in every aspect was ShouHAR (SHOUTUL HARAKAH) and Raihan, do you agree? But the best is always ShouHAR, to me ShouHAR has a huge place in my heart. They do not consider themselves as artist but they are DAE’S alright. "NAHNU DU’AT QOBLA KULLA ZALIK" once said by Brother Chandra to me. ShouHAR has performed in a concert of 350 thousand people in Indonesia, marching while singing “Untukmu Palestina”, 10 thousand is just “nothing” (They did not say “nothing”, I said it). Although there are famous and well-known, did they boast up because of their popularity? NO. As Lord Mansfield said (a British author), “True popularity is not the popularity which is followed after, but the popularity which follows after.” (Do you understand this quote? If not ask me =) )
Akhi Syakir, Akhi Raja and Akhi Hamid [Picture by Muttaqee]
You know, the best part in this concert was that, the level of enthusiasm, zeal and zest of the crowd was always optimum throughout the concert. Everyone was like crazy, no not crazy, energetic as the artists perform. Everyone was like jumping here and there, full of life, full of activity that night. Even old people wanted to take part as if they are still young (yeah, young at heart maybe). This is my second experience seeing a scene like this. I had some work to do so I did not follow the crowd. Even I was working behind the scene; I can feel my body automatically reacted to the beat!! But, are we being lively for nothing? We are jumping and showing of our energy, our enthusiasm for ALLAH, ISLAM and PALESTINE!! It is also a reminder whenever we are going down afterwards, we will remember that moment. Again ShouHAR dominated the crowd’s attention. The crowd’s energy when ShouHAR was performing was lively as ever, more energetic compared to other performing artists although they started performing at about eleven o’clock. ShouHAR performed almost 12 songs that day and combining all the other artists, that makes 22 songs!!! Exhausted?! NO. We are forever FIRM and STRONG!!
As we know, the journey to Palestine under the LIFE LINE 4 GAZA project starts this 15 Mei 2010. I want to ask you a question, will we stop striving after this project has ended? NO. We will never stop striving for ISLAM, for PALESTINE until the liberation of PALESTINE. Salahuddin AL-Ayubi once said “I will never yet SMILE, until AL-Quds returns to the safe hands of ISLAM”. Are we willing to say the same quote as him? Whether we want it or not, we ought to brothers and sisters. PALESTINE IS OURS, AND FOREVER OURS!! Takbir!!!
p/s: IIUM Journalism Club will be organizing an opening ceremony for the Palestine week on Monday 10 Mei 2010 at IIUM Main Auditorium. There will be a talk by Ust. Darus Senawi (Advisor of HaluanPalestine). You are kindly invited. Please forward this message to all.
Behind The Scene
Brother Chandra with his fierce face. [Picture by Muttaqee]
“MASYALLAH, CHANDRA, LONG TIME NO SEE AKHI” I cried happily after I saw Brother Chandra at the SHOUTUL HARAKAH’s room behind the stage. He replied with a smile “Oh, amin, Keifahaluk?” (I can’t believe he remembered my name; we only met once last two months). I was so happy to see him. Everyone was very busy that time including myself, so we had a short chat before parting ways as he wanted to perform Asar prayer. I do not know why out of 7 people in ShouHAR, brother Chandra is the most closest to me.
For about a week I was handful. For other committee members, their hands were full for more than 3 months!! What are we busy for? It is to make sure the success of PALESTINE MASS GATHERING 9 (Perhimpunan Perdana Palestin) 8 Mei 2010 at Melawati Stadium, Shah Alam Selangor. For weeks and months, all the committee members went all-out finishing all the tasks given. We had to undergo exhaustion, stress and crisis with putting only ALLAH as our helper. If you are in our seats, you will know that a huge plan such as this is very tiring!! But I can say that all our sweats really paid off!! TAKBIR!!
Don't make yourself stop. Keep going on forward and maintain your strength, make sure that your strength is at it's optimum. May ALLAH bless us all…
HiMEGA is the abbreviation of Hijrah Menara Gading, a program organized by HALUANsiswa solely for high school graduates before they enter higher institutions. HiMEGA will be organized every year around February to April. This year 2010, upon the post-HiMEGA’10, HiMEGA has reached its 10’s anniversary; this means that it has been constructed for a decade now- a period of ten years!!! This years HiMEGA has recorded the most number of participants compared to the previous years. More than 170 students took part. During my time (HiMEGA’ 07), the number of participants was only around 100 participants.
HiMEGA’ 10 was held at Za’ba College, UKM, Bangi from 23 to 26 April 2010 (4 days). The first day was exclusively for the committee members and starting from the second day, HiMEGA’10 officially starts.
The question now that has been playing in my mind is that “HOW WAS THE HiMEGA?” Many people asked me this question. I would answer back to them “HiMEGA? A FAILURE TO REMEMBER…” For those who went to this program, are you on the same boat as me saying that HiMEGA is a FAILURE?
If I say that this HiMEGA’10 is a FAILURE, then everyone that participated in this program are losers. All the committee members including me, all the participants and all the individuals who are present in this program are all SCUMS.
When I say HiMEGA is a FAILURE, this means that all the hard work, all the stress and all the strive we put on to make sure the smoothness of this program are USELESS. In my case, I only slept for about 8 hours in four days, which is also FUTILE.
Pak ARBI once said to me “Every program must have 3M, the program must be MESMERIZING, when the program is mesmerizing then the program will be MEMORABLE and when the program is memorable, it must be MOTIVATING.” You tell me whether HiMEGA is MESMERIZING, MEMORABLE and MOTIVATING!!!
Well actually to be honest, I am very impressed to all the committee members in all their hard work. I do not want to go on to each and every secretary. I would give to this HiMEGA an A -. I have nothing to say about the weakness of each secretary because everyone has given their ample performance along our four days together.
But the question is why HiMEGA’ 10 is a FAILURE TO REMEMBER…? The failure of something is not determined by its OUTSIDE, but it is determined by our INSIDE. The outside of HiMEGA or should I say HiMEGA as a whole is more than good, but if during the four days of hard work we put something besides ALLAH in front, then HiMEGA is a total FAILURE. I am afraid that my intention in constructing this program is other than ALLAH. That is why I say that HiMEGA is a FAILURE to REMEMBER…
Remember this hadith on the authority of Omar bin Al-Khattab, who said: I heard the messenger of Allah salla Allah u alihi wa sallam say :"Actions are but by intention and every man shall have but that which he intended. Thus he whose migration was for Allah and His messenger, his migration was for Allah and His messenger, and he whose migration was to achieve some worldly benefit or to take some woman in marriage, his migration was for that for which he migrated." related by Bukhari and Muslim.
Put ALLAH in every intentions you make, ask yourself “All my intentions alright, am I doing it for ALLAH or not?” If your not doing it for ALLAH than, you will get nothing.
If you want to enter JANNAH, than do everything for ALLAH.
p/s: Sorry if this post is not so well written, I wrote it in a hurry.
