SHE’s gone… It will never be the same again….

“It will never be the same again,

everything’s we’ve lost, we can’t regain,
the love we wanted, we can’t get,
because it’s only left as a memory we can’t forget”

“SHE’s gone right?” I said to myself. I loved her, respected her, and cherished her but she’s gone now and I can’t reach her any more.

I still remembered, the time I spent with her. Every moment was special. Every second was crucial. There was once a time we talked heart to heart, no barrier as if we were madly in love, yeah; we are in love, a love so deep.

We shared all about our lives, experiences and values we have to gain. At the end of our meet, I took out one RM50 note as a present of her kindness, but she nodded and smiled, then she said “Wait until you have your own work”. I was still 16 at that time, 5 years ago. Yeah, I know I need that money more than she does.

12 September 2010 was our Eid UL Fitr family gathering at Bagan, Parit Besar, Batu Pahat. But this year’s Eid will never be the same as before, it will never be the same. We gathered together as a family but something feels wrong. There’s something missing. There’s someone missing. “She’s missing” everyone cried, “She gone” everyone said, “She will never return” everyone agreed.

We cried, yeah we cried, tears were running, sad faces everywhere, “She’s gone” I kept on repeating it to myself. As a human being I felt sad as she is not there, but I know Allah has called her home.

This is the very moment when the lyric of Zain Bikha’s song; I remember your smile, makes me fail to smile.

Where there’s alright, there is no wrong,
I always thought we were so strong,
but our time just flu right by,
there wasn't a chance to say goodbye.

I'm so confused,
I feel all alone,
Deep in the heart I know ALLAH has called you home,

o..o..

But yes,
Your smile,
still lives in my mind,
and yes,
it’s so hard,
I just break down and cry.

I remember,
the time,
our friendship always strong.
I remember,
your eyes,
ran away to melt my heart.

Most of all,
I remember,
I remember your smile.

Sometimes I lay awake at night,
the pain in my heart i just can't fight,
why did u have to go away,
yet I know none of us can stay.

U always be,
so special to me,
in this world you'll always live as a memory.

o...o..

But yes,
Your smile,
Still lives in my mind,
and yes,
it’s so hard,
I just break down and cry.

I remember,
The time,
our friendship always strong,

I remember,
your eyes,
run away to melt my heart

Most of all,
I remember,
I remember your smile.

I miss you, I love you grandma.

May Allah Bless your soul atok Saemah binti Urip.

 

I hate you, you and you!!

A friend sent me:

“Hope Love and Laugher,
warmth, wishes, joy and
a bouquet of Eid wishes, jubilations,
become a part of your Eid and Your Life.
Have a Happy Eid Mubarak.”

…but I’m still unhappy. I’m unhappy because everyone around me is happy; happy of things they are not supposed to be. They are happy because they have completed the fasting month, or some would say they are ‘free’ after 30 days in ‘custody’. Whatever they may put it; I just hate all of them! To me, I would prefer every day is in Ramadan. But I know, Allah has ordained only one month for fasting and 11 months not; is because we as Muslims need it and I need that too.

A Ramadan graduate

You have to bear in mind that after you have graduated as a Ramadan graduate, you ought to have a scroll of Taqwa embedded in your heart; because University of Ramadan teaches us Taqwa.

If we go through Ramadan with determination, we are automatically equipped with a defensive system that deters ourselves from passing the boundaries.

“and take a provision (with you) for the journey, but the best of provisions is right conduct (Taqwa). So fear me, O ye that are wise”

Surah Al-Baqarah: 197

I want to stress here that you are only exempted from this University of Ramadan and counted as a Graduate after you have the automatic defensive system of Taqwa.

Credits for those who have won this scroll of Taqwa!

The true meaning of Eid UL Fitr

Eidul Fitr means ‘Festival of purification after completing Ramadan’*, according to this definition, there are prerequisites in order for us to celebrate it; purification is the former; celebration of Eid is the latter. Purification here ‘means back to Fitrah’, also means purified as cleanse as a baby.

 How can we obtain purification? :

”عن أبي هريرة رضي الله عنه أن رسول الله صلى الله عليه وسلم قال: (من قام رمضان إيماناً واحتساباً غُفر له ما تقدم من ذنبه) متفق عليه“

“Whoever stands in Ramadan with belief and expecting the reward, his past sins will be forgiven”

…But the question now is, are we confident that our sins are purified? This is why I hate those people you arrogantly celebrate Eid as if their purified. You already know that you have loads of unfinished business with Allah that requires your repentance but why you act arrogantly? Why you act as if you’re sinless? This is why I hate you!

Yes you can be happy but be happy accordingly. Don’t celebrate and forget everything. That day, what is haraam is still counted as haraam. Holidays are only meant for Human beings, the works of angels never end. All our deeds are still scribbled in our book of deed.

It’s more than just a wish

Eid UL Fitr is more than just a wish, more than just typing or forwarding sms:

Hope Love & Laughter,
warmth & wishes
joy and a Bouquet of Eid Wishes,
Especially for you!!!
Jubilation becomes a part of your Eid and your life….!
EID MUBARAK

Until now, I haven’t sent or forward any Eid UL Fitr wishes to anybody because to me, wishing something that I hate is just nothing, trash.

            You know, the first day of Eid, I got more than 15 Eid wishes but during 30 days of Ramadan, not more than 5 text messages in my inbox. Why is this happening?  That is why I hate you!

            You should understand that Eid is more than just a wish, more than a message too.

  

Let us revive and realize

How many Ramadans have we gone through?
Why are we still the same? This is not a lie but true, so true!
How many Eid UL Fitr have we celebrated?
Are we purified as the moment we were created?
Have we asked for His forgiveness?
Or are we still in our darkness?

Let us realize and revive,
let us wake up and strive,
Let us stand up and go forward,
let us speak up and spread the word,
have Allah created us for nothing?
No, HE created us for the best in everything.

This is why I hate you, you and you!

This is why I hate you, you and you if you don’t understand the true meaning of Eid UL Fitr… Finally, this is a wish from me:

Look Outside
It’s so pleasant!
The sun smiling for you,
trees Dancing for you,
birds singing for you,
because I requested them All to wish You
**..*Kullu ‘amin wa antum bikhair*..**

WHY DO YOU HAVE TO GO AWAY?!

WHY DO YOU HAVE TO GO AWAY?!

Ramadhan, don't go away...

By: ~dae_meen~

Today’s the day, you and I will part ways, maybe forever,
we’ve spent wonderful time together,
every moment you’ve accompanied me,
every second you have made me see,
 but when it’s goodbye,
I can’t question why.

Ramadhan, why do you have to go away?
When you know that none of us can stay?!
Why, why and why?!
Why should I say goodbye?
Don’t you know that I’m not satisfied?
And I know all my sin is not yet purified!

O Syawal! Why do you have to come?
You have made me numb,
Don’t you know that I hate you?
I’m not telling a lie, this is true,
I have never wished for your arrival,
to me, your something so trivial.

I hate to say ‘sayonara’,
but I know that I have to start a new era,
a new start, a new life, a new will,
I need to build up strength, for the coming 11 months, but still,
Will I always be strong?
To go through a path that’s so long.

O Allah! Help me to stand firm!

I know this not about what I want, this about what I need...

...what I need to obtain YOUR Rahmah...